Why does everybody know about vicky dumping me. Everybody is saying "sorry to hear about you and mahala" on her bebo page. people on msn start conversations asking if im okay, have I haerd from Vicky? NO i HAVEN'T FUCKING HEARD FROM HER. I haven't even spoken to her since we "broke up" All I've been told was in an offline message from her saying lets be friends. I want to be friends, I'll take any time with her I can get but she's ignored me the whole fucking time. still ignoring me. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how to think how to live why to get up each morning. It's really getting to me. She's friendlier with strangers than she is with me! It makes me so angry, I've never felt as angry before. I went driving to try clear my head, I've actually let myself go out of the house with someone. Anything to beat this loneliness. Anything to make things the way they were. I keep thinking about giving up and how sorry she would be. If I could I'd take her with me. I'd send us both to hell. I really hate to come to terms with this but I hate her. I hate her for plunging me back into this darkness that she rescued me from. I thought she rescued me from it, I thought we were gunna own a fancy house and grow up together. but no. it's just me now. I don't want anyone ever agiain. It will be just me from now on.