Aparantly the cat being sick on the chair is my fault. This made my Mother angry at me and she was just out of the door when she realised. I don't want to fly anymore. I want to be thrown into to ground and smash my head open. Last night I got a txt from Anesha saying "Hey Lala we're playing laser force on saturday us sea monkeys agains the upper hutt girls Do you wana come?" YES, I'd love to come. I love laser force.  But I said no anyway. Ever since I've left the canoe polo team they have invited me to go out with them, we are all still really close friends. I went bowling with 3 of them the other day. What I don't like is having the whole team and coach there and me going to because I feel like I am intruding or somthing because I'm not in the team anymore. I haven't weighed myself in days and I'm scared to. I might go for a drive later on. I want to get my exam results back, they should come like in a few weeks. I've passed level one already because I have 100 credits I just want to know my exam marks. Sigh.