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i need help but don't know where to turn. can't seem to help myself. am eating crap again after more than a year being faithful to weight watchers. cutting after more than 2 months of abstaining. trying to distract myself. spending time w/friends. listening to music. reading. watching dvds. playing online games. none of it is making this bad feeling i can't name go away or at least helping me identify it. what do i do? where else can i turn? my medical doc blames all my physical symptoms on my depression and psych issues. my psych doc thinks i have an undiagnosed autoimmune disorder. my counselor seems to want to help me but i don't know if she can. where does that leave me. what do i do? or what do i do other than continue down a road of self destruction? where do i turn? how do i cope? where do i begin? as always, i have lots of questions and few answers.....