day 13
well time keeps flying by, staying very busy! the wknd flew by and then Monday as always is a bit hard to get back into the swing of things. I went to the gym at lunch and then made a bunch of food in the afternoon, then off to play ultimate at night! Today same deal, went to the gym, home and make lunch, (quick nap bc I barely slept last night) and then made some delicious fruit salad I cant wait to eat it tomorrow!
Only problem is I am not really getting any work done, or making any more money, or figuring out what to do with my life!! Keeping busy but so busy I am able to put off doing anything I dont want to do - including putting off marking my exams from last week.
I want to rebrand my own business, but problem is I don't know what to focus on. I want to do it all, help people with fitness, help people with learning, I want to write, I want to sell things, and make things... Its very overwhelming!
But on the bright side I am feeling much more positive. Over the wknd I got into a big slump bc I was wanting some escape or fantasy really bad, didn't indulge in any but went to the movies with ym wife Saturday night and we watched wolf on wall street, and it really made me go crazy and get all depressed! The movies main character just did everything I wanted to do, the extreme fantasy life, all the easy money in the world, women and sex everywhere, and drugs and wild parties non stop. I think coming to terms with it means accepting that living in fantasies gets me no closer to improving my life in any way, so if I do want my life to be better (and the degree I want my life to change might differ) but I can only do that by becoming more focused and driven and actually getting some things done!
Only problem is I am not really getting any work done, or making any more money, or figuring out what to do with my life!! Keeping busy but so busy I am able to put off doing anything I dont want to do - including putting off marking my exams from last week.
I want to rebrand my own business, but problem is I don't know what to focus on. I want to do it all, help people with fitness, help people with learning, I want to write, I want to sell things, and make things... Its very overwhelming!
But on the bright side I am feeling much more positive. Over the wknd I got into a big slump bc I was wanting some escape or fantasy really bad, didn't indulge in any but went to the movies with ym wife Saturday night and we watched wolf on wall street, and it really made me go crazy and get all depressed! The movies main character just did everything I wanted to do, the extreme fantasy life, all the easy money in the world, women and sex everywhere, and drugs and wild parties non stop. I think coming to terms with it means accepting that living in fantasies gets me no closer to improving my life in any way, so if I do want my life to be better (and the degree I want my life to change might differ) but I can only do that by becoming more focused and driven and actually getting some things done!
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