Wow I just read the very first entry I made online - when I described my depression. What a change this site has made. I could barely get out of bed when I first came on here. Yesterday I got up onto my roof and blew all of the pine needles off of the roof and raked them into a nice neat little pile (big pile). Now I'm getting my bedroom ready for decorating - I've cleaned my deck off completely and am getting ready to wash my windows. My living and dining room looked like a junk yard a month ago and I've made headway there too - they almost look like rooms again.My bills are paid - my son and I are close again - my little gremlin grandkids love their Nana (me) and i really want to live again. I wasn't totally sure that I did want to live anymore at first - it didn't seem like there was much here for me anymore. And every single bit of this progress is because of you - my dear, dear friends who have been here and cheered me on.I'm not very expressive generally - and saying the above actually sort of embarrasses me but I mean every bit of it - I am so grateful for you - and I do so love you for what you have done my dear friends. Lets all stick together - we all need each other so much. I hope I have done for you as much as you have done for me.