I want to say that I'm not an alcoholic or anything like that. I never drink, except when I go out, which I never do anymore.  I know it's completely wrong to mix my meds with alcohol, but sometimes I just want to have fun for a change.  I want to go back to church, but I still don't have a home church.  I'm not supposed to be drinking or dancing because I'm christian, but sometimes it's hard, cause I feel frustrated with my disability.  I haven't updated my goal because I would be  lying to everybody, even myself.  I really want to serve the Lord again, but I don't know where and I hate having to go to church alone.  Hugs and Kisses, Bonchi.