I feel so insecure.  My mother and I are going to see an attorney, that speciallizes in everything that has to do with inheritance.  She wants to leave me part of the duplex, but I don't know if I'm going to have enough money to pay the taxes and other expenses.  My son started working, but he tells me that he is going to be leaving soon, he wants some independence(that's what he tells me).  I understand that a I'm bipolar and no one in my family wants to deal with me, especially when I have a crisis, but I feel so lonely and abandoned, all I think about is when my mother is not here anymore, my anxiety level is super high, and I don't think there's a medicine that will cure what I feel.  When I called the attorney's office, the secretary said that there is a Estate Planning and a Special Needs Trust Account that my mother can leave me.  Sometimes, and I know I'm wrong, I don't feel like living cause I'm a disaster.  I have the low income apartment which I hate, but I live with my mother right now, I have lived with her most of my life and if I lose her, I'm going to miss her so much that I don't know what I'm going to do without her.  Sometimes I don't even know how to express what I'm feeling.  Tomorrow I have an appointment with my Psychologist, let see what she has to say about all this.  I hope somebody reads this, and gives me some advice.  Hugs and Kisses, Bonchi.