I'm not feeling very well today, as a matter of fact I wish I didn't exist.  I was talking to my mother and the conversation turned out to be about her testament.  She hates every time we talk about it because I'm not included and of course, I tell her it's not fair.  Since I'm disabled, everybody thinks I'm going to lose all my benefits.  She told me to go ahead and call her attorney on monday and see what he has to say about all these.  My mother owns a duplex and an account she has with her bank(of course I'm not included in any of these).  What I was telling her is that I don't know why we can't get together as a family and discuss these kind of problem.  Instead, she wants me to go ahead and call her attorney and that's exactly what  I'm going to do.  I hate to be in this kind of a mess, because I've never being interested in material things, but I'm not going to be left out alone and with nothing.  The money and the house are going to be divided between my sisters and my son.  That's all I have to say for now.  I really hope someone reads my journal and let me know his or her comment about it.  I love you all very much and blessings to all of you. Bonchi.