I'm really sorry I haven't been writting to anybody, but I feel very depressed and anxious.  My mother will receive the results of the biopsy tomorrow.  I have an appointment with my psychiatrist next monday, I hope he can help me.  I want to start seeing a psychologist as soon as possible, I need help.  I keep trusting God, but sometimes it's hard to believe I'm going to be left alone in this world.  Not only I would be left alone, but without money, due to the fact that I won't inherit the house or any money because I'm disabled and my mother says I would loose my benefits if she does.  I don't care too much for money but it's understandable that to live in this world it's needed.  I don't want you to think that I don't want to loose my mother because I'm economically stable right now, because I adore my mother with or without money.  The only thing I can do is keep trusting God and his promises.  I love you all very much and I always pray for all of you.  Blessings, Bonchi.