just an update
My anxiety has been ridiculous this week. I'm making it by though, I'm just trying to take baby steps. My boyfriend's little brother is leaving tomorrow for 21 days to train for a job, and I know it's messed up but I am so happy about it. This means I get my boyfriend TO MYSELF for almost a whole month!! I might actually get to talk him into looking for a new apartment and spend time with his family without someone making comments about me and embarrassing me. Don't get me wrong, I actually like his brother but he doesn't seem to like me so whatever.
I love my new classes, but I am waiting to see if my professors will go on strike which really mess up my financial aid. But I know they deserve the higher pay so I'm gonna walk out of classes with them. I lost 3lbs this week AND I'm going to the beach with my entire family, YEAH I SAID MY ENTIRE FAMILY!! My parents, in laws and sister and niece and nephew. We have never done anything fun together, it should be great. I just hope we can go on a day when I don't have classes so I don't have to skip. And I hope to God my mom doesn't flip out on my dad's new GF, (who has cancer), and I hope my sister and her BF aren't fighting the whole time. Who am I kidding, one of those things will happen but I hope it's just my sis and her bf fighting cuz if he calls my sister a bitch in front of my dad he's gonna get what's coming to him LOL!
My boyfriend ha been talking about having a baby all weekend, I'm still not quite there yet but I'm thinking about it. If we can find a new place and get settled in it might really be time to start trying again, but I am so afraid that nothing will happen. That's why I have to lose this weight, I need to get the PCOS or Adenomyosis under control and get healthy so I can give my baby the best chance possible.
I love all my friends here on DS, I hope life is giving you sugar with your lemons instead of the usual. xxoo
I love my new classes, but I am waiting to see if my professors will go on strike which really mess up my financial aid. But I know they deserve the higher pay so I'm gonna walk out of classes with them. I lost 3lbs this week AND I'm going to the beach with my entire family, YEAH I SAID MY ENTIRE FAMILY!! My parents, in laws and sister and niece and nephew. We have never done anything fun together, it should be great. I just hope we can go on a day when I don't have classes so I don't have to skip. And I hope to God my mom doesn't flip out on my dad's new GF, (who has cancer), and I hope my sister and her BF aren't fighting the whole time. Who am I kidding, one of those things will happen but I hope it's just my sis and her bf fighting cuz if he calls my sister a bitch in front of my dad he's gonna get what's coming to him LOL!
My boyfriend ha been talking about having a baby all weekend, I'm still not quite there yet but I'm thinking about it. If we can find a new place and get settled in it might really be time to start trying again, but I am so afraid that nothing will happen. That's why I have to lose this weight, I need to get the PCOS or Adenomyosis under control and get healthy so I can give my baby the best chance possible.
I love all my friends here on DS, I hope life is giving you sugar with your lemons instead of the usual. xxoo
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