So sad

I really had a horrible day yesterday. It started when I woke up and just went to hell from there. I just had so many thoughts going through my head, I just started to cry..cried all day about everything. I couldn't even try to focus. I just wanted to go home and curl up in a dark corner where no one can find me. So I called about my health insurance and made an appointment to see my therapist. I went last night a 6pm. It made me feel alittle better. I hate to be like this I just want to be happy, happy that's all. I told my therapist that I feel that the world would be a better place if I were not in it...peace of mind for me at least. But I gotta think of my daughter, who will care for her... I'm calling my doctor today to up my dosage, lets see what she says.