Ok, I havent written in a while. I was on a drepression road and didnt want to even be bothered with anybody or anything. Sometimes life can be so hard dealing with NF. I see those proactive commericals (I wonder if I put them on my NF, would it work, just kidding) I hate NF with a passion, but hey this is the hand I was dealt with and have to live with it. Im trying to get out of this depression. Its hard when its 97 degrees out (with a heat index of 107) and you I am wearing long sleeves, and long pants and everybody is wearing a Tshirt and shorts. (ugh) Im trying to though. Sometimes I just need to vent.  I hate looking in the mirror but I have to or I may go out looking a hot mess. I wish all of us born with NF could find somebody that would look at our situation (a doctor) and say hey "this is not a cosmetic thing, this is psychologial and help us. The damn doctor told me there are no rewards in removing NF, it doesnt pay the bills. I wanted to go off but hey cant do that. I bet if it was his child he would not say that. But i didnt find a doctor (God bless america) who took the oath to help people and not in it for a dang dollar. God Bless you all and I will be in a much better attiude next time. Actually I feel great but deep inside im hurting.