I am feeling very lost at the moment and paranoied about anything iam finding hard to tal to anyone or even leave the house iam so close to losing it cause i can talk i have had had a lot of thoughts about suicide i am not self harming as i dont think its good enuff to do anyting to help cutting wud not help this feeling its not distructive enuff i cant even pin point whats gogin on iam just all over the place aty the moment i need to get a grip but just cant seem to get losse of these feeling my shrink just keeps giving me pills i dont wnat to take fucking pills i need fucking help my bulimia is out of control they have discahred me from the clinic and told me to just get a grip FUCKING C**TS awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwi cant handle this anymore i just wanna die you hear me die i dont wnat to live i dont want to breathe i dont want to talk i just want to die why is it so hard to ask for 1 thing and not get it its killing me being alive
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aw sweetie, I\'m sorry you feel so horrible..Please, hang on. You KNOW it is your brain causing the problems, reality is not as horrible as it seems.
I understand you are angry and sad... I\'ve been there as well. Don\'t give up...
Sometimes the only way to get out of the emotional pain is through pill or drugs, but drugs are worse, you know that yourself.
Please aceept my love and hugs. You are such a young man still, keep trying, OK?
Write to me if you need to.
I\'ll be thinking of you.