Hi its been a while since i wrote anything in here so better write something well i started a new job workign on a dementia ward i love it but it is hard sum days 1 of my sister has gone to prison for 6 months (silly girl) my docotr has started me on olanzapine agian iam getting married in june ..... breathe........ slef harming not as much but still feeling very suicidal most of the time not going out as much drinking more doing more cocaine agian so reall all in all nothing has changed really xxxxxxx