Hi guys sorry not put an entry in not been so good today got train home and had sum man hearl homophobic abuse at me saying i sud be ashamed of what iam and my mum sud of drown me at birth it made me feel so fucking worthless and shitty i feel so shit about my self i am on the verge of slitting my wrist and ending it everythig is so fucked up at the monet i think my bf i cheating but wont bring up incase of a agument and that happen i knwo for for sure i will end up taking an overdose iam so scared of anyting as if sumthing babd happens now its just pushing me closer and closer to the edge i am drink shit loasds to numb the pain the only gud thing is i have not cut YET well ther is my moan over i th8ink i will be cancelling my ds accont as all i do is complain about shit and i know everyone has there own shit to sort out and does not wnat to be worrying about a sad little puff who cant handle life OHHHH FUCKING HELL i am so angey goodbye
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Now don\'t leave. Even when you\'re hurting, at least I can come here and know you\'re still alive. Please trust me. You won\'t always feel this way about yourself or people who are so vicious. There\'s probably always gonna be that kind, but as you gain strength and learn to care for yourself, you won\'t be so vulnerable to them. What they say isn\'t about you.
If you do end your relationship, don\'t forget that you made it fine without him before. What you need most is you and a strengthening of your faith. It doesn\'t have to be a traditional faith ... just something to keep you knowing that you are an important part of a bigger picture; you are necessary.
You\'ve had a lot of pain in your young life, so learning to live without pain is an adjustment. Booze isn\'t gonna help, so ease up if you can.