Hi everyone well not feeling to good at all i ahve started to tkae laxiatives againand they have been founf and flushed away i feel to out of control iam sat her listening to eva cassidy somewhere over the rian bow just to make myself cry to realiase some pressure i feel so down at the momnet i am dying to cut myself and bleed to death all i can thnk about is destroying myself i got my letter back from hospital and they have said iyt is defo bulimia iam suffering from i cant handle this anymore i wish i hope that i sleep and dont wake up every night and get pissed off that i wake in the momrning i miss my dad so much i cant belive he has left me to deal with all this shit i cant handle it anymore its all to much for me to handle iam scared to tell them at work incase they sign me off owrk and i end up in the nut hiuse agina and thats not gonna look good on my sickness report when i come to do my nurse trsaining hopefully in septmenber i dare not go doctors in case theyt section me i dont know were to turn i casnt talk to my aprtner as i just cant put into woprds how i feel and to see his look in his eyes would destroy me well i dont dont know what else to say now to upset sobbing my heart out now
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so sorry that your feeling bad hun!!! if you need to talk....pm me ok??? .... thinking of you ..... lots of love....jann