well today i went to a N a  meeting and he wasnt there a part of me wants to see HIM and a part of me doesnt ,,,,,,,what are my reasion is that i really miss being with him ,,,,gawd i didnt think iwould feel this way about him but i guess i do ,,,i should just forget about him now and move on i know its best for me ,,,but how to tell your heart to do so ?,,,,,,,no cravings today ,,,,friaday is the day im having a party for my 1 year i can't wait its gonna be great having ppl say good things about me ,,,that makes me nervous anyways i should go to bed and try not to think about HIM arghhhhh hope you have a good day