ME AGAIN, JUST THOUGHT I WOULD TRY AND WRITE A SHORT ENTRY TODAY. WHICH COULD TURN OUT TO BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME, AS YOU HAVE PROBABLY NOTICED. TODAY, THURSDAY JAN.3RD/2008, AND I FEEL LIKE HELL!! I HAVE BEEN BATTLING WITH THIS TERRIBLE COLD, WHICH I THINK HAS TURNED INTO BRONCHITIS (AND/OR) PNEUMONIA!! I AM SOOO SICK MY NOSE IS CONSTANTLY RUNNING AND SOOO CLOGGED UP, MY CHEST AND BACK FEEL SOOOO PAINFUL, AND OF COURSE MY FM PAIN IS ALWAYS THERE WITH ME, LIKE AN OLD FRIEND, OR SHOULD I SAY ENEMY??? I HAVE SPOKE TODAY TO SOME OF MY FRIENDS HERE ON DS, AND AM SAD TO SAY THAT EVERYONE IS SICK AND STRUGGLING SOMEWAY OR OTHER.  THIS TO ME IS NOT THE WAY LIFE SHOULD BE.  US ALL SICK AND TIRED AND IN CONSTANT PAIN!! PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY, FINANCIALLY, IT JUST BREAKS MY HEART. OH, HOW I WISH I COULD HELP ALL OF YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS!! I TRULY MEAN THIS... IF I HAD A TON OF MONEY (WHICH STILL WOULDN'T HELP MY PAIN) THE ONE THING I WOULD TRULY LOVE TO BE ABLE TO DO, IF I WAS FEELING ALOT BETTER. I WOULD LOVE TO COME TO EACH AND EVERYONE OF MY FRIENDS ON MY FRIEND LIST, AND KEEP THEM COMPANY FOR A WHOLE DAY!!! JUST TO GET TO KNOW YOU ALL BETTER, AND TRY AND BE IN YOUR SHOES. YES, EACH AND EVERYONE, I FEEL FRUSTRATED HEARING THE PAIN, AND DISCOMFORT AND TRULY WANT TO HELP YOU ALL!!!! DON'T GET ME WRONG I WANT TO KNOW ALL ABOUT YOU ALL, AND I AM HERE FOR YOU, WHEN I AM ABLE. I JUST WANT TO HELP SOOO MUCH MORE!!! DO ANY OF YOU KNOW HOW I CAN HELP YOU MORE??? I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO KNOW??? I FEEL SO CONNECTED TO YOU ALL. IT IS HARD FOR ME SOMETIMES WHEN I AM TALKING TO ONE OF YOU, THEN ANOTHER. AS I GET SOOOO CONFUSED WHO IS WITH WHAT ILLNESS, AND WHAT SITUATION THEY ARE IN. AND I TRULY FEEL EMBARRASSED, NOT REMEMBERING EVERYTHING ABOUT EVERYONE OF YOU!!! I WANT TO BE A REAL FRIEND, IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN???? I THINK I JUST THOUGHT OF WHAT I WILL PUT DOWN FOR MY GOAL.... MY GOAL IS GOING TO BE TO GET TO KNOW YOU ALL BETTER, AS MUCH AS I CAN, YES, THAT SHALL BE MY GOAL... I THINK I WILL GET ANOTHER TYPE OF JOURNAL AND WRITE DOWN EVERYTHING THAT I KNOW ABOUT EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU, MY DEAR, DEAR, FRIENDS. SO I CAN TRULY BE A BETTER FRIEND!!! NOW, I FEEL BETTER, I HAVE FOUND MY GOAL, AND AS SOON AS I CAN GET THE PEN AND PAPER I WILL SLOWLY START A JOURNAL OF ALL OF YOU!!! I THINK THIS MIGHT BE ALOT TO DO, BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST!!! YOU SEE, I NEED ALL OF YOU, AS MUCH AS YOU NEED ME!!!! THANKYOU GOD FOR HELPING ME FIND MY GOAL!!! YES, I WILL GET BUSY, SLOWLY, BUT SURELY!!! THANKYOU.