HI AGAIN MY DEAR, DEAR FRIENDS.  SORRY I HAVEN'T WRITTEN ANYTHING LATELY, IT JUST SEEMS TO TAKE TOO MUCH ENERGY, AND THINKING THAT HURTS MY BRAIN!!LOL I HAVE BEEN CONNECTING TO SOME OF MY DEAR FRIENDS IN NEED, AND YES, I WANT TO TRY TO GET TO EVERYONE!! ONE OF MY PRECIOUS FRIENDS, WELL, HER HUSBAND JUST PASSED AWAY THE OTHER DAY.  AS WITH MOST OF YOU I REALLY SEEM TO FEEL A GREAT CONNECTION, AND HAVE MUCH EMPATHY FOR YOU ALL.  SO WHEN I HEARD THAT MY DEAR FRIENDS HUSBAND HAD PASSED, IT REALLY UPSET ME ALSO, I CRIED AS I WROTE A MESSAGE OF CONCERN BACK TO HER!!! THIS IS HOW MUCH YOU ALL MEAN TO ME!!! IT IS PROBABLY WRONG TO GET THAT INVOLVED, BUT THAT IS MY PERSONALITY, I CARE, I REALLY DO ABOUT ALL OF YOU SOOOO MUCH!!! I HAVE BEEN ON DS PROBABLY FOR AT LEAST 6-9MTHS, AND I THINK ALL OF US DO GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER QUITE WELL, AND THIS IS ALSO WHAT I ENJOY ABOUT THIS SITE.  I DO HAVE A COUPLE OF DEAR FRIENDS OF MINE LIVING IN EDMONTON, ALBERTA, CANADA.  I DON'T GET THE CHANCE TO SEE THEM VERY OFTEN AS THEY ALSO HAVE HEALTH ISSUES, NOT FM OR CHRONIC FATIGUE, BUT THEY TOO CAN'T GET OUT VERY OFTEN. I HAVE KNOWN BOTH OF THEM FOR ABOUT 30YEARS!!! BUT, I DON'T GET TO TALK TO THEM EVERYDAY, AS I DO WITH SOME OF YOU. I HAVE SOME OTHER FRIENDS BUT THEY ARE NOT TOOO CLOSE TO ME, I ENJOY GOING FOR COFFEE, AND THINGS WITH THEM OCCASIONALLY, BUT I NEED SO DESPERATELY TO HAVE A BUDDY!! BUT, I AM HAPPILY MARRIED AND MY HUSBAND IS MY VERY BEST FRIEND, SO I LOVE TO DO THINGS WITH HIM, INSTEAD OF SOME OF MY FRIENDS. DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?? I THINK SO.......MY HUSBAND ALSO DOESN'T HANG OUT WITH HIS FRIENDS AT WORK ETC. SO WE LOVE TO DO THINGS TOGETHER, AND WE BOTH ENJOY EACH OTHERS COMPANY, I WOULD RATHER BE WITH MY HUSBAND THAN ANYONE ELSE!!! ALSO, MY 2 DAUGHTERS LIVE IN EDMONTON, AS DOES MY 2 GRANDCHILDREN, WHICH ARE VERY PRECIOUS TO ME ALSO!! I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GETTING AT HERE, I GUESS IT'S JUST TO LET YOU ALL KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME, I LOOK FORWARD TO SEE MESSAGES ON MY COMPUTER, IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE SOMEONE IS THINKING ABOUT ME!!!!! AND I HAVE BEEN MORE DEPRESSED LATELY, SO THAT REALLY CHEERS ME UP, I LOVE TO INTERACT WITH YOU ALL ON DS, I REALLY WANT TO TRY TO TALK TO MORE OF YOU ON THE CLICK TO CHAT, BUT I DON'T SEE MANY OF YOU ON THERE, AND I HAVEN'T SEEN THE SIGN "CLICK TO CHAT" ON YOUR PROFILE, OR FRIENDS LIST!! I WANT TO REALLY GET A WEBCAM AND IT WOULD BE SOOOO MUCH MORE PERSONAL IF SOME OF YOU DID ALSO, SO WE CAN SEE EACHOTHER, WHEN WE TALK!!! AWESOME, IDEA, DON'T YOU GUYS THINK SO??? PLEASE THINK ABOUT THAT AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK, OK??? ONE OTHER THING THAT IS REALLY BOTHERING ME IS THE FACT THAT, I HAVE BEEN  GOING EVERY 6MTHS. FOR A MAMMOGRAM AND ALSO A ULTRASOUND ON MY BREASTS, AS BREAST CANCER RUNS VERY HIGH IN MY FAMILY, SO THEY NEED TO CHECK ME VERY OFTEN, NOW THEY HAVE FOUND SOMETHING THERE AND I HAVE TO GO ON TUESDAY DEC.4th FOR A BIOPSY OF THE LEFT BREAST!! I AM SOOO SCARED, I AM TRYING TO THINK POSITIVE, BUT DEEP IN MY GUT I FEEL MAYBE SOMETHING IS WRONG  WOULD IT BE TOO MUCH TO ASK YOU ALL TO SAY SOME PRAYERS FOR ME AT THIS DIFFICULT, AND VERY STRESSFUL TIME, I AM GOING THROUGH??? I NEED YOU MY PRECIOUS FRIENDS, AND I KNOW I CAN COUNT ON YOU ALL TO HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS, AND I WILL SAY THANKYOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART NOW FOR ALL THAT I KNOW YOU WILL DO!!! AS I SAID I GO ON TUESDAY DEC.4th @10:00am, AND THEN HAVE ANOTHER DR. APPT. THE SAME DAY AT 3:00pm. I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG IT TAKES TO FIND OUT THE RESULTS OF THESE KIND OF TESTS, BUT AS SOON AS I KNOW I WILL DEFINATELY LET ALL OF YOU KNOW, OK?? I PRAY AND THINK OF ALL OF YOU EACH DAY, AND I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE MORE BETTER DAYS THAN BAD DAYS!!! I WILL SIGN OFF FOR NOW AS I THINK THIS IS A VERY LONG JOURNAL ENTRY AND I AM BAD FOR DOING THAT, AS YOU ALL KNOW..... SORRY AGAIN.  SENDING YOU ALL MANY PRAYERS AND HUNDREDS OF HUGS FOR ALL OF YOU TO KEEP WARM AT THIS TIME OF YEAR, AND ALL OF THE TIME!! I LOVE YOU ALL AND I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE ALL OF YOUR FRIENDSHIP AND KIND WORDS AND OF COURSE ALL OF THE HUGS AND STORIES AND FEELINGS YOU SHARE WITH ME, I AGAIN AM THANKFUL FOR ALL OF YOU.... I AM TRULY BLESSED!!!! LOVE CUTESY... SUE, SUSIEXXXOOO