Hi again everyone!! Yes, it's me finally writing a journal entry. Well, where do I start??? I guess I will let you all know how I've been doing.  I have been getting such horrible pain in my legs, ankles, feet, hips, and all over my body!! I never seem to change, my pain is a constant 8-10 level out of 10!! My Chronic Fatigue is getting worse as I am exhausted all of the time, and mentally I don't seem to have the energy to even think!! Anyone else out there that feel this way?? I mean I really don't have energy to think things out, my word finding is getting worse, my understanding of sentences, and my sentences are getting more confused!! I feel bad already just explaining to all of you how I am doing lately, I don't want to sound like I'm saying oh, poor me, cause that is not how I want anyone to view this as that. I've had depression for many years and now it is again hitting me hard!! I am just sooo tired of this bullshit illness and what it is doing to me, and all of us!! I have no umph! I cry so easily, and just want to sleep. The more I explain it the more I can see that I am in a depression.  I've talked to my dr.s re: my feelings and they say yes depression is very much connected to the chronic pain etc. I recently went to another seminar about FM/CF and hoping always to find my "answer" but it is always the same things they are saying, just in a different way!! Oh, how I would love to hear a new "something" re: this FM/CF, anything!! If anyone out there has heard of any new news about either illness, please let me know, as I have tried everything out there now. My last attempt at helping with my pain was my lidocaine infusions. The very first one I was very excited at what was happening!! For about 3 days, my pain actually went down between a 3-4 range!! But, came back with a vengence!! I've had probably 5 since and haven't had any relief at all with any of them. So I am back to square one.  I think I will end this entry as I am even getting sick and tired of hearing myself!! LOL Sorry, peoples I just wanted to let you know how I really am doing.  As many of you are asking, so I thought I would journal it. I hope that all of you are doing better than I am right now.   Well, I'm going to say a prayer for myself, and for all of you too! Take care and smile a little smile for me!