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Tired, and tired of it all.  Not going anywhere, just down.  Even my pdoc seems overwhelmed.  She saw two of my kids today, but seemed so stressed and was running so far behind that I just couldn't push her to squeeze me in...so now I have to wait until the 16th to see her...which bites.  I have surgery on the 17th...saying buh-bye to my awful left ovary which has tormented me so much with painful cysts for years now.  They are going to look around a bit too, see if everything else seems good.  I am scared and I wanted to be stable before it happened.  No such luck.
Timmy, my 9 y.o., is depressed.  It hurts to see him miserable.  My almost 18 y.o. is just plain hateful.  She is house sitting right now, and I think we all need a break from the stress.  I am hoping things will be calm around here, because I just can't deal with a bunch of crap right now.
I am tired, I want to sleep.  But there is too much to get done.  Too many people depend on me being happy.  I don't want to disappoint them.
 
Done whining.