i thought today would be bad because it was 60 and raining. it reminded me of the days when he'd just look out the window and we'd decide to skip classes and just lay in bed all day. but the day got better. i ate breakfast, i worked on my fairy tale. i finished the fairy tale and even wrote my paragraph to summarize and present to the class. then i had chemistry, we watched a movie so i actually understood things in that class. we painted in the lab and i drew a cat which turned out rather nicely. then i printed all kinds of articles that i hope will help with my term paper. i'm very nervous about the term paper. it is due in a week and i have nothing done but a thesis and some very mild research. i need to ask for an extension. i must face my fear and go to his office hours tomorrow. this is a MUST. 
things i must also do:
explication de texte
colonial latin america historiographical essay
oral presentation (french)
and then there are finals...
but this is a doable list. i must stay positive. i'm so tired thought. i think it might be a result of the geodon. i can't keep my eyes open sometimes. yesterday i took a 2 hour nap and still was asleep on my feet at 11. this is not good, i need more time to be productive so i can get all this done. 
or i could use time like this productively instead of writing in journals. but i think this might help. i don't have my phone today which has been challenging but cat hasn't gotten back to me about getting it back. i wonder if she went to bikram yoga... interesting. 
please help me through this. please let me focus and do well on these assignments. PLEASE.