The cuts are healing, my heart is mending, and again beating with fire and intensity. I still love him, but I know he's with her, and so long as he's with her... he isn't the same man I love. Distance. Safety. It is time for me now to figure out who I really am, what I like, and situate my life in such a way that I can be self sufficient. Im tired of having to lean on my father for housing, lean on others for food. MEW!!! I want to support MYSELF! Is that so wrong?
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IF HE\'S STILL WITH HER THEN HE ISN\'T YOURS AND HE\'S JUST USING YOU. I GO THROUGH THIS ALL THE TIME AND I PICK UNAVAILABLE MEN ON PURPOSE BECAUSE I THINK I DESERVE THE PAIN. PLEASE KNOW THAT YOU WILL BE LOVED BY A GOOD MAN SOMEDAY AND THAT YOU ARE BETTER THAN THIS!!! LOVE YOU LISA
Keep your distance is a good plan. He obviously does not deserve you. Someday there will be someone worthy of your affection and devotion. But it\'s not him. Even if he left her to return to you, could you ever really trust him again or love him in the same way after all he has put you through. I don\'t think so, I couldn\'t!! there would always be the doubt and the hurt standing between you. Let go and move on, you deserve to be happy and you don\'t need a man for that, just make yourself happy, love you again. Move on!!! Be well, Debbie
Thank you guys, but this is a positive entry. Basically telling you guys that I no longer mourn him. TElling myself that I will move forward with a smile whether he is at my side or not. Part of me will ALWAYS love him, but until he\'s ready... until IM ready, we wont be together
Jennheimrich you are absolutely correct. i saw it as well. i like this posting. this is what love is about. amazingly creative. touches the soul.
It is so nice to hear you talking like that. Just think of it in the same terms as your hypoglycemia. You had to change your lifestyle in order to stay well. You are mentally and emotionally vulnerable and must rearrange you lifestyle in order to stay well to. There really is no difference. Your relationship with this man is toxic, not good for you. Get rid of it as though you would get rid of something in your diet that would affect your medical condition. I know it is hard, and I am here if you need me. I don\'t think it is wrong to want to be independent. Just make sure you acquire the coping skills you will need before you go marching out there on your own. I know you can do it. You\'re the best!
Jennheimrich. Its good to hear about your decision to move on with your life. Hope that you feel better.. :-)