Today I feel wrose than ever. The last of the friends I thought I had have both stabbed me in the back and it hurts so much I dont have blood anymore, I have ice water in my veins. My heart threatens to stop beating every minute, and I catch myself wishing it would quit, and stop torturing me. This pain inside my chest plagues me to the point I have lost my appetite, and will to breathe. I have no friends, my family abandoned me long ago, and I cannot trust others enough to make friends. Im lost. Im dead inside, and I doubt anyone is strong enough to help me. I nee dhelp, I know this, but no one wants to help me. I dont matter, I barely exist.