Sunday

Yesterday was a miserable day - miss my stbx more than anything, cried in the shower, cleaned all day and went to the movies with the kids but even before we left I didnt feel like doing anything, I didnt want to leave the house, I didnt want to get dress, I was just feeling blah but glad I did, enjoyed the movie and been out of the house.  Today was a much better day, went out with the kids, really warm, nice and beautiful day, get to hang out with some friends in the afternoon and the feeling of doom did not attack me today.  My stbx haven't call me like in 3 days and I think that's why yesterday was also a blah day - even though I know it's over, those little bits that we get to talk still highlight my day, how pathetic I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Eventually I will feel better and I hope to have more days like today and less and less like yesterday.  Sending good thoughts your way my DS friends and praying for the recovery of our souls!!!!!!!!