Tuesday

Went out shopping with one of my friends, it felt good to be out with my friend, to have fun, to forget for a little while, to feel normal, to feel like no matter what I'll be ok, that I will have bad days but other days remind me that life is good, that is good to be alive, that I don't need him to be happy, that I can have happy/fun moments focusing on me, taking care of me.  For a long time I forgot about me and it seems like I'm getting myself back -I don't want to loose myself again, so I have to concentrate on the rewards of staying strong and keep going forward and don't look back to what could've been.