Saturday

For the past two weeks, I am once again in bad shape.  I am feeling so much compression that it is so difficult for me to walk and do the most basic of tasks.  I even feel like my ribs are caving in.  God, I do not, I cannot withstand surgery!! Needless to say, depression has set in which I am fighting against.  My greatest fear is that in years to come I will be in a wheelchair, and unable to do the simplest things at home.  Maybe I will post on DDD support group, I feel that I am in a very bad depression, tears running down my face as I write.
My husband is a wonderful person, but he cannot handle seeing me like this. I think that he is in denial, and really does not know what to do for me.  I selfishly wish that he was more of a homemaker and cook, (so that things would be easier), but he is not.