Saturday
Dearest,
What a busy day! I went to the lumber yard, I was good, only spent about $40. Got the wood I needed and then actually worked on the kitchen some. I was cooking and while I was waiting for stuff to be done, I was puttering. Restacked the shed while I was at it. Had a terrible case of "but first", wound up sweeping out the shed, don't let me forget I need to put air in the snow blower's tires. I made that rutabaga and carrot thing that Kristin likes, by request, it came out great I had to force myself Not to sit there and eat it all. I also made her scalloped potatoes, they were good to, I am amazing. Going to Kristin's tomorrow to spend the day with the grandsons, I need it.
When I was driving to Audubon today it started to snow and I started thinking, you know, I don't want to be here anymore. I don't mean here geographically, I mean here, in this life. I've had enough, I'm fed up and I give up. The snow turned into rain. I have to cover for Ed next week, that means I have to do everybody. Manitou will beat me up, devil bird from hell! I wish that I was smarter than him.
Some one asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I went off into a dream about what I wanted. I guess I didn't respond, but at least I didn't cry. I have to think of a reply that I can automatically spit out. They don't want to hear the truth, they have no way of understanding. Maybe that's it. Maybe that's what I want for Christmas, understanding.
Till we meet again, Your Ken
What a busy day! I went to the lumber yard, I was good, only spent about $40. Got the wood I needed and then actually worked on the kitchen some. I was cooking and while I was waiting for stuff to be done, I was puttering. Restacked the shed while I was at it. Had a terrible case of "but first", wound up sweeping out the shed, don't let me forget I need to put air in the snow blower's tires. I made that rutabaga and carrot thing that Kristin likes, by request, it came out great I had to force myself Not to sit there and eat it all. I also made her scalloped potatoes, they were good to, I am amazing. Going to Kristin's tomorrow to spend the day with the grandsons, I need it.
When I was driving to Audubon today it started to snow and I started thinking, you know, I don't want to be here anymore. I don't mean here geographically, I mean here, in this life. I've had enough, I'm fed up and I give up. The snow turned into rain. I have to cover for Ed next week, that means I have to do everybody. Manitou will beat me up, devil bird from hell! I wish that I was smarter than him.
Some one asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I went off into a dream about what I wanted. I guess I didn't respond, but at least I didn't cry. I have to think of a reply that I can automatically spit out. They don't want to hear the truth, they have no way of understanding. Maybe that's it. Maybe that's what I want for Christmas, understanding.
Till we meet again, Your Ken
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