Day 1

This is Day 1 of my attempt to beat my anxiety. I have been on Zoloft for three days now and day 2 was the worst. I am ready for these anxiety attacks to stop and to go back to my normal life. I am soooo thankful that I have such a wonderful and supportive husband without him I do not think that I would be able to go on. He trys his absolute best to listen to me and my feelings and never accuses me of being crazy. I don't know what I did to deserve him. I am so thankful that he is a part of my life and has given me three amazing and beautiful baby boys. I am so worried about something happening to him if he does go to Afghanistan. I don't think that I can continue without him, but I will have to for the sake of our children. I am just so ready  to be over with this move and back in the states. I am scared about what will happen when he deploys and I am left alone with the three boys by myself. What makes matters worse is that I will not be working because I will be preparing for my student teach. I can't wait to finish  school. I am excited about finally being done with school and teaching, but at the same time I worry if I will be a good teacher or not. I think that is about all that I have for now. I will keep this update as to my progess with how I am doing on the medication and with beating my anxiety.