2 weeks since i wrote on here, was doing  well apart from being tired all the time.  had to miss 2 funerals because my sister was going and i still cant face her. my councellor is off for 4 weeks, i miss talking to her on sat mornings. 7.ooam, havent slept all night, crying for 2 hours. am falling apart,  thought i was strong. i have a big family i love and am grateful for, but i feel all alone. why do i feel like this now????????????