have been out and babysitting everyday since last saturday, have let the house get in a mess but thats ok, no need to get upset about it like i used to. before i would d**** to give me energy to do my cleaning in the evenings, thats not normal, nor was d******* on my own when the kids were away, or most of my day thinking when i would have my next d....., or getting d...... making a fool of myself, not rememering getting home, going to bed, waking up scared to remember what i said, hangovers, and regret the time i should have spent with my kids. that is all behind me, so glad i have got that off my chest, now i am not going to look back, have too many regrets, cant turn back the clock..............am looking forward to my new healthy, clean,normal life, have soo many good things i want to do.hi to all my friends, have a nice weekend.xxxx