back again, last week i wasnt feeling well, slowly getting worse everyday.......then it clicked.... my son was using new body spray with alcohol. my daughter got new perfume from her boyfriend, i was breathing in the fumes!!!!! triss you begged me to stop taking the tablets.....down the toilet now!!!!! still have a long way to go to reach my goals, and thank God i am on the right path now, after all this time. i used to pray to God to help me cut back, not stop,then i prayed to stop for good. i am going to accept all the help i get from christine my counsellor,elaine my social worker, doctor wallace, and the doc from the hospital. i am very grateful to them all and my family and friends. i have 4 beautiful kids and 4 beautiful grandchildren, and step ones too. cant believe how bad i was getting over the last year or so and i could have ended up losing everything for the sake of a d****. thank you patty xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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No one ever said it was easy, but hopefully, with all your friends, family and dostors, you can do it! I\'m praying for you!!!
Honey..no problem. Just kick that beasts\'s ass good. You KNOW what it is now. It\'s that damn mid-brain....not you. Did you make the Big Plan? If so, that\'s all thats necessary. You know the difference between right and wrong. I am not going to address the pills. You know I would not tell you lies. What would be the point? Right? Just don\'t let anyone...ANYONE..take what you learned away from you. That damn beast is so sneaky...but you know YOU are it\'s master. Remember the IT vs the YOU. You don\'t have to pray because you already used what the good Lord gave you. Your common sense and logic. Any doubt...any doubt you have is your Addictive Voice. It wants what it wants and it will do anything to get it...but remember...you are the only one who can give it anything. Alway keep in mind this...........
AV = Beast as Bark = Dog. When the dog barks you ignore it, tell it to shut up or laugh at it and recognize it for what it is...just barking. Nothing else...just barking. It wants something and it wants YOU to give it something. Therefore, it\'s always YOUR choice, not the dog...not the beast. Beleive me, honey, it will get easier the more you practice. Remember the R in AVRT is RECOGNITION. The fact that you recognize it is proof of your recovery. Try putting some humor into the game. It really helps. And as you feel that power and you know that the beast is crumpling up in its cage, you\'ll laugh even more. Pretty soon the beast will just crawl away with its tail between its hairy legs and die. The beast is a quadraplegic...it cannot do anything unless YOU do it for it. You now know what is morally and ethically right and you will do it. I have all the faith in you. Anything else would be hypocritical. You\'d feel like a fool to let that little peice of gelatinous blob beat you. Not you, oh no, not you. Youv\'e come full circle and you know the truth...you\'ve proved it to yourself already. No going back. Love, Triss
thanks kitten n triss.xxxx