dear christine, thanks for being there for me every sat morning.  i always feel better when i come away, and you get me to think about someting positive for the following week.  you noticed at my first visit to you , i didnt like myself very much, and there was the time i had to choose between pampering myself or drinking....before i took my drink i looked at the mess and dirt in my house, looked in the mirror, and said to hell with it, i only deserve to drink!!!!!!  what a mess i was the next day, had a bath and tried to scrub away the filth i felt for my self...hate hate hate....when will it ever stop?????? it has stopped!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel soooo good, will write again soon. love jen.x.