Waiting
7 days of Provera now just waiting for my period...
I am worried because I took 100mg of clomid and it did not work this time. 50mg kinda worked, 100mg worked the first time, 100mg the second time (this most recent time) I did not get a normal period.
I don't really hang out with any of my friends anymore, I get tired of talking about all the work that I have to go through, just to do what my body should do naturally. On the other hand, I get frustrated if they don't ask me how things are going, like they don't understand or care about how difficult this is for me. Also, I don't want to make new firends because what if they get that "good news" and I am stuck fighting feelings of jealousy and wanting to be happy for others....
I find that most days I am fine, but every now and then, it just hits me. This wave of sadness and the thoughts of what if it never happens, why do I have to be the one that this happens to. It usually passes rather quickly but it is so unsettling.
Life is not always what we dream, but it is the struggles that make us strong.
I am worried because I took 100mg of clomid and it did not work this time. 50mg kinda worked, 100mg worked the first time, 100mg the second time (this most recent time) I did not get a normal period.
I don't really hang out with any of my friends anymore, I get tired of talking about all the work that I have to go through, just to do what my body should do naturally. On the other hand, I get frustrated if they don't ask me how things are going, like they don't understand or care about how difficult this is for me. Also, I don't want to make new firends because what if they get that "good news" and I am stuck fighting feelings of jealousy and wanting to be happy for others....
I find that most days I am fine, but every now and then, it just hits me. This wave of sadness and the thoughts of what if it never happens, why do I have to be the one that this happens to. It usually passes rather quickly but it is so unsettling.
Life is not always what we dream, but it is the struggles that make us strong.
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