I had thought that there was no one out there was going through what I have been going through for the past 8 years. Alone is what I have felt and what I have been since my daughter walked out of my life. I refer to myself as broken and just like Humpty Dumpty I can't be put back togeather again.
This pain has been beyond anything I have ever known and although I fight each day to just get through it I still feel it to my very soul. There are so many feelings attched to not having any contact with her that I at times feel overwelmed with sadness, anger, guilt and even shame.
I have isolated myself , I have begged God above to ease the pain and at the end of each day I pray that this will be the night that I am not haunted by the dreams and that for just a little while I can forget.