Update

Wow it's been a really long time since I did a journal entry I just never know what to say. I know that part of the point is to keep others up to date on what's going on with me but I'm afraid that my life just Isn't that interesting. One of the things that has happened since my last entry is that I got approved for ssdi, I almost feel guilty because I got approved on the first try never had to hire and attorney.  I was planning on it taking a year or more but it only took like three months, that sort of unheard of. I filed online and I never even had to see or talk to anyone other than a few phone calls.
I stopped working mostly because I was being taken advantage of and got tired of it, and I really didn't have to put up with it anymore. I was in a partially state funded program set up for the disabled. It was a difficult job sort of like a sweat shop and payed piece rate which means you get paid for the work you do and not hourly and unless you could do it way above the average there was no way to get close to minimum wage. Apparently if your disabled they don't have to pay you minimum wage, I didn't know that and I think it's wrong but that's just the way it is.
I've been having a lot of trouble adapting to my new schedule, that being that I sit at home all the time and I've always worked so it's taking me some time to get used to, but it's not permanent. I'm currently in the process of looking for a new job, since I'm on disability now I can only work a part time job and that's fine with me but the job market sucks and it's taking more time than I had hoped.  The other problem is that I'm moving and not sure where yet, I'm on a list for section eight housing but don't know when it will come through so I'm going to have to do it on my own which is fine but my case manage is looking for something for me that would be for low income and i just haven't heard yet where that might be.
My mood has been ok and that's a welcome change although lately I've been having day to day depressing and I'm not sure why. I so don't want to go back in the hospital again., I'm on Wellbutrin and have been for awhile so the next time I see my pdoc I might have to increase the dosage but I hate antidepressants and I don't want to take so much that it makes me manic,  but there are friends that have here that are really struggling and I'm just glad that I'm somewhat stable. 
I've been spending a lot of time on ds and have made some new friends and  I've  really enjoyed getting to know them, I spend more time in the bipolar forum now and read almost everything but don't comment very much.  I' going to stop now and since I have more free time I plan to journal more. In short I'm doing ok.
 
 
 
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