My Angel Mandi,I know it looks like I haven't wrote in a while. I have started several times but just couldn't finish. Thanksgiving was horrible. Daddy, Ray and me went to Grandmas house. Of course it wouldn't be a holiday with out the fights. With Pappaw passing, you would think that there would be more consideration. Name calling, swings, cussing and yelling- We just left. I told Daddy and Ray that we would be home for Christmas holiday. The holidays are just days off work now. I have so many pleasant memories of our holidays- just our little family. I put your tree up and it doesn't even come close to being as pretty as you did it. I turned the lights on and cried so much. I had to turn them off. Ray asked did I want him to take the tree back down. I want it up and then I don't. I hurts so much to just have memories. I tried to do the day after Thanksgiving as we did. I couldn't do it.  Yesterday Ray and I went to the store and over the intercom, some one paged Amanda Clark and I almost fainted. The first time they paged it sounded like Amanda Caulk. Ray hugged me and said Mom She's always with us. I miss you so much. God knows I love you. I love you so much. Hugs and kisses. Love ya, Mom