It's Sunday morning and I am feeling depressed today.  I have been doing well for the past month.  Wellbutrin seems to be somewhat working.  I think what set off my depression today is one of the issues I have was brought to light again.  Last night I went to my older brother's anniversary party, given by his three children.  It was a nice affair.  I was the flower girl in his wedding. (years ago).  My older brother have never bothered with me since our mother died in 1972.  He is nice and will talke to me and his wife also, but I am not part of their life.  It always has been her family.  At the party last night, I looked around and observed how my brother and his wife interact with other people.  I feel like a stranger.  My one niece lives near and I have in the past gone over to bring birthday and christmas presents to her kids.  I got invited to a couple of birthday parties and then she made the comment that that they were not having big parties anymore, just close family.  What the hell am I?   I have step-brother who I am closer with.  I have minor intereaction with my other niece and nephew.  We e-mail once in a while. So, I am feeling blue today because all these feelings have surfaced again.  I will have to try to keep busy today so I can stop thinking about this.  Marie