This is the first journal entry that I have written.  I am so depressed lately.  I hate the way I feel and yet I can't seem to help it.  I really don't know what I have to be depressed about.  I try so hard to keep positive and make my self do things so that I don't dwell o the way I feel.  Somedays, I just feel like I want to give up.  I do think about wanting to just die.  In my sleep of course. Sometimes I think nobody would misse me and than I think that my husband and daughter would.  I don't know what to do.  I am only working three days a week for the summer and I don't know if that is helping.  I am bored at home, but don't really want to be at work either.  I have no interest in things that used to make me happy.  I was always a very smiley, friendly and happy person.  Now I feel like most of the time I am an empty shell.  I know all of you know how I feel and I would offer some advice.  Marie