:(

I feel like every single time I have a good night or day, or any kind of good moment, a bad day follows. For real it' like I can never catch a break. If I have a good day I have to have a bad day. Last night was hella fun. Of course at first I was hella anxious, and thought I had to leave, but then I made myself stay. I ended up having a really good night, and was like anxiety free for the last half of it. I even got home and actually are food! I woke up this morning feeeling extremely tired, but thought it would be a good day. After I was up thought it just all went down hill from there. I feel like shit and I am freaking out about germs and getting sick like to the max. I am carrying hand sanitizer every where I go, and feel like I am going to throw up every second. I just want to be normal, and be happy. :( It really bums me out, and the weather outside is cloudy, dark, and rainy which is just making me feel worse. I wish I had somewhere to go right now to get my mind off all this!