In Perth with my family - sisters. Nice and good to see them. I have been away from here for a long time in my life with mark, so my sisters have interests a bit different to mine which makes it a little difficult at times, but not so much.  They are into afl football and i know nothing about it. They are all feral over it! Rang my motherinlaw as was thinking about going over there, but decided not to. Mark is taking Rowena there on Friday and i feel like it is out with the old and in with the new. It disturbs me and i am again angry at him for stuffing up my life. I liked his dad and got on ok with his mum despite her downfalls.  I miss that, as since i have lost my mum and dad, it was like another set of parents. 26 years of it too. and on the weekend coming, it will be Fred telling stories to Rowena and laughing and not to me. I am upset over that. In fact, I phoned them to say hello and mentioned it to Lynda.  She told me not to worry, but she does not care about anything but her golden boy, so it was false.  Just another set of things to get through i suppose. Eventually there will be no more.  On Easter sunday they are going to have lunch with Marks brother and his wife and their kids - a happy family gathering with mark and rowena and not me. That upsets me but i know i am better not to be there. Just a stumbling block. Today Mark sent me a text. He had stopped and i think he has given up chasing me which is good.  But the text told me he was going to write a book about our family and that i should put a chapter in it. Of all the hypocritical comments! He made me angry.  The one person who fought for family through thick and thin was me, and he did not think it good enough to cherish and continued his disgusting behavior to destroy his family unit, and now HE wants to write a book!I sent a message back telling him to back off, for he destroyed our family through his fucking behavior and to write about it as though he was remorseful and actually valued his family would be horrible.He got all narky then. So I asked if Rowena was going to get a chapter. He then responded with something about both of our new partners putting something in.He is a dickhead and i want nothing to do with him. I told my mother in law also that if the kids and i are over at Xmas time this year we will see them, but not if Rowena is in our presence.  We will never have a thing to do with her.  Surprisingly she said that she doubts she will be around....   So i feel a little out of sorts.  Process of moving on i guess. I feel i dont have much in the way of solidarity around me. No close friends in Brisbane, no extended family.  Feel a bit like a lonely mouse out on my own. But i am ok. I have Paul to talk to and i love that, and he loves me which also makes me feel good. And i have lots of friends that i am yet to make who will also love me. I must be patient. My arm is getting a bit better and i have a small biceps again now!