Of course most of those few horrible days last week were hormonal. I checked on the reactions to the pill and there is certainly a predominance of 'mood swings' in the side effects.I am a different person again, and actually missing Paul. I dont know what goes on in my head. But i think i did learn that i am clearly not ready for any form of serious or long term relationship.Mark is still keen to get back together.  He sat next to me on the plane on the way back to Brisbane last night and prattled on about 'our finances' and 'our investment plans for this year". It was not the time nor the place to answer back so i just let him go on and on.He took another piece of newfil lump out from under my eye yesterday morning at the office. It had no bruise and only 2 stitches but i iced it anyway and then went to the movies with my daughter to escape the heat. Nearing the end i thought my eye felt strange and asked her to look and it had blown up like a golf ball, so I had to go back and get a dressing put under it to put pressure and stop the bleeding. Now of course, I still have my 2 tiny stitches, but also a HUGE black eye to go with it. So much for being inconspicuous. I wore my sunnies on the plane and will be wearing them for weeks to hide this bruise!Mark took our son to soccer last night and i let him sleep in our other sons room downstairs since it was just for the night. He did not bother me, and has not been pestering me about getting together today. He goes back to Townsville this afternoon. He made some comment yesterday that he was going to move to Brisbane but i also ignored that and did not bite at it.  he also said something to the effect that 'rowena and I were a bit to do this week', I think that means arguing. Who knows.Am happy again anyway.