I sold my house in Townsville. For less than we wanted, but it is sold! And it would have been a big sticking point in making my settlement go by with ease, so now it is done.  Settles in only 2 1/2 weeks too, so need to find Emily a house to rent for her and the cats asap. Had to phone mark to discuss this and gee i hate talking to him.  He agreed to the lesser amount which was good. Then he wanted to take charge in finding em somewhere to live but god only knows how, as he is overseas until this weekend.  And in any case, she wants to do it herself.I can foresee a big problem coming with her and him. We want him to pay her rent but of course she hates him and will not have a thing to do with him, so he will get angry as usual and threaten to cut her off and may even do that. I mentioned this in a round a bout way to him on the phone and his response was "i am passed that now".  Yes, well i would believe that if i was a sucker. So i am taking steps to see what can be done to make sure Em is secure. She has again become her happy go lucky self in the month he has been away. It will be terrible if he brings out that bitterness in her again by his threats. She needs to be left alone and in her own time she may forgive him a bit. Threats will not make it faster, they may in fact prevent forgiveness in the long run.She is funny, she talks to Paul on the phone and calls him second daddy. He is ok with that and laughs it off. On Saturday Paul said the most wonderful things to me. We talked on the phone for about 6 hours.  He said "I am busting to tell  you something" and when i asked he replied that he wanted to tell me to my face. But of course once he had said he was busting, he had to tell me.Anyway, he said that he had never told anyone this for he had never felt this way, but he felt he had met his match in me and that he had never felt that he could live long term with anyone before he met me but now he did. And that one day he would like to marry me. He would ask me romantically and he would like to marry me!How so very romantic. The way he said it bought tears to my eyes.He feels guilty that i have the money and he has none, but i told  him not to worry. He will sign a prenup willingly - it was his idea.  Just dreams, but what is life without dreams. Makes me so happy.Even if nothing eventuates, it has given me hope and happiness from deep within my heart.It has made me want to end it completely with Mark so that I can get married to someone else. I am scared of that of course. Both the divorce and the remarrying. I would not rush into remarrying, for if it failed again, that would mean 2 failed marriages for me and i dont want that. But for now it makes me feel on top of the world and that is important. It is like he said to me this morning "your ducks are lining up this year honey". And he is right. At long last, my ducks are lining up. He is the lead duck. I am sure my mum is helping me from heaven. I am sure she is looking after me.In three sleeps i get to be with him again. Only 3 sleeps.....