Not written in a long time. Doing really, really, really well.Never thought I would ever get to the place where I am confident in saying that i am pleased to be divorcing mark. Pleased.Have a taste of his bullying and aggression from time to time especially lately, and in particular this morning. And it reminds me of how he did that to me for so long and what i put up with for so long. Better to have no one in your life than that. Much better.This morning he threatened to move back into the Townsville house as he 'is my husband and that is his house". Then he told me I was going to have it as my settlement. And I am not. Then he said that the Brisbane house was going to be his, for that is the only way he can see his boys. That upset me no end, for this is my haven and I have had to leave my friends in Townsville because of his actions, and am trying to start again here and I dont want him to take that away.In reality I know he cannot. It is the usual nasty words. Horrible.Emily did not want the present she got from him. Because of that, i am the one that is coming between he and his kids.... so he says. When I suggested to her that she send him a text telling him of her preferred present, he then sent me one tellng me not to worry as he and Emily had sorted it out. No insight into perhaps the reason he had sorted it out?? Perhaps it was me who in fact did that for him ??? Dickhead.After the barrage of stuff this morning I screamed at him on the phone telling him his 35 fucking women have made me have to leave town and that he had no right to take my brisbane house away etc etc. Sadly Nick was in the background and saw how upset i was so now hates his father even more.next weekend, I think mark is coming down to Brisbane. I have told him he is not to come to this house. And I will not be down so I will not be able to police that. Nick does not want to see him at all so I will have to sort out something else. They can either hide in here or perhaps go to another friends home. Kris is ok with him, but he does his own thing anyway. Who knows. I am tired of this shit.I am having a great time with my mates online and with Paul onthe phone. I am going to the snowy mountains in early Dec to hike with Paul. We are meeting in Sydney for a day in a few weeks time just to make sure we can break the ice before we hike together. One room at the YHA.....He talks to me for ages on the phone. And he sends me text messages all day. He is not wanting a serious relationship and neither am I. my main problem with meeting him is that it may ruin the fantasy of it all. The phone sex and his voice is stupendous. Absolutely fantastic. Never believed i could be so turned on. Leaves mark for dead... We do that a few times per week and often feel toey at the same time which is good. SAFE. that is what it is. Appeals to me because it is safe.Worried about meeting him in case he does not like me. That is the only problem with the online stuff. I dont intend to meet anyone else but i have some good caht buddies which fill my time.Rowed for Queensland this morning on invitation from the coach. Wonderful although early start at 4am. Great 15k hard row, nearly killed me but good to be in boat with 7 fit women, some fitter than me obviously. May be the direction i need to take. to leave townsville rowing and move here.Coach introduced me as having moved permanently to Brisbane as of last thursday??? dont know where he got that from, but may have been said so that the ladies dont think they have a fill in from another club as there are women from their own club who would love to fill in. I am going back Monday too. Think that is the best thing to do.House not sold in Townsville but someone else going through it tomorrow . Cross all fingers and toes...