After the terrible crap and heartache of last night, he is just sitting around my house in Brisbane - or rather laying around on our sons bed, and not talking at all. Not interacting at all. You would have thought that perhaps he could use what happened as a lesson - as we certainly got to see exactly who she was and how she operates last night, both her and her sister. They were ridiculous. At one point, her sister rang my phone repeatedly and asked for mark to be put on the other end. He refused. So she rang and rang and rang and no matter what I said she would not stop. I told her I would get the police involved and she said she would do the same but about what I do not know, for it was her ringing me and not vice versa. Her sister is a piece of work, and slut is tarnished with the same brush.To see Mark trapped in that sort of family, where he was manipulated into being there - would be a laugh for me in the long run. Sure it would hurt big time to start with, but in the long run I would get to see him get exactly what he deserves for being a prick.And how on earth do I ever trust him. I simply do not. I stay down here tonight and he goes back to Townsville into his unit on his own for the night. What do I expect him to be doing? Calling her or seeing her. I know it. And nothing will convince me otherwise. How on earth do I think I can go on with him? For realistically I cannot.And then I thought about the repercussions of her getting pregnant in any settlement that I have in a divorce. I wonder if it will make any difference to me. I will have to ask my girlfriend when I get home tomorrow night.The main thing is, today, he should be sitting with me, using this last episode as a catalyst to get the two of us back together. And what is he doing? The same as usual.I am going out to get some art for my walls down here in this house. Alone. Again.All I ever wanted was someone by my side who appreciates me, cares for me and is honest. That should not be too much to ask. And Mark has become some sneaky bastard. I do not know what he thinks, what he does, what he says or anything. What he says to me is all lies. How on earth can I go on.I know what needs to be done. I am afraid, but I see it as close.