Crappy, crappy existence.Mark wants to come back. he is keen to move home and get on with things. He had time with her and said at the end of the day felt 'empty' and missed me and the kids.I am not so sure as he has such a history of putting out this olive branch and not being genuine. Well, not really, as he has always had the desire to be with me, I know that, but he has also had the desire to be with her and he has had us both for he would not make up his mind.He says now he has made up his mind and broken it off with her. He has broken it off with her a million times in the past.I dont know what to believe. It feels so right when we are together. That is my gut feeling. It always has. Is that my fear of being alone or my genuine love for him??? How on earth do I think I can forgive him for what he has done.Any my daughter threatened to leave last night. She said he or her. I cant make that decision. I will choose her,but who has that right to make me choose? I can see her point as she has been through everything first hand with me, but am I not adult enough to make my own decision.I dont know what to do. I want it all back the same as it was before.