I have managed to get through the day better than expected. I am trying to get focussed on getting some direction in my life and I have decided to go back to Physiotherapy I think. I am thinking of doing chronic pain stuff from Chrysalis (my skin care business). I have to get lots of information about how to set up a private practice and fees etc etc so I have sent a few emails to my governing bodies to see if they can point me in the right direction as I have no idea.I spoke to Mark by phone tonight as I wanted to ask him if he was going to object to me taking over the skin care company and removing it from the business. He of course was excited at me doing something as "he thought one of our problems was that he gave me no value as I did not work and earn an income and he thought i just sat on my bum all day and played golf and rowed". Never mattered that I ran the kids and the household, I must have just sat on my bum. Idiot.Listened to him again tell me that he is with her and needs to be but is planning his future with me! Odd. Stupid. Ridiculous. To think that he thinks it is ok that I sit and wait for him to screw another woman silly to get her out of his system! When I make a mention that perhaps that is not the right thing to do and pehaps he is destroying anything we could ever hope to regain by having another woman, he gets all aggressive and says that if I am not here, then he will go with her.I asked him if she was everything that he wants in a woman and he said no. Quite easily, said no. I asked if he had perhaps indicated to her that he was thinking along the lines of coming back to me rather than staying with her and he told me that he had not discussed it with her and in fact I believe him to be still encouraging her. I mentioned that I did not think that ideal as someone else is going to get hurt at his hands. He did not seem to mind that after all "I have had to please everyone else for the last few years of my life and now I am pleasing myself" and he wont stop doing it at a time that anyone tells him to, it will be when he is ready. He is thinking perhaps 'weeks". Interesting.And, he out lined to me his plans for the future with me!!! Yes, with me. Moving to Brisbane, getting a unit there, renting our house out there, working in either Cairns, Townsville or Mackay - each location for several nights per week but based in Brisbane. Building a house on our block in Townsville and mooring our boat out the front.Each time I tried to perhaps bring in some reality to his thoughts - how he perhaps should be with me when making those plans and not in the bed of his slut... well, that did not go down too well.I gently reminded him that spending time with her was indeed greatly risking destroying what we had forever. No good me just yelling at him as he gets defensive and I end up getting the blame. It is mighty strange how he thinks! I think I will add this as a post!