My real first day alone. When I really know he is now with her and in her arms. Had a sad night but slept ok and underneath all this emotion, I do have a sense of what is the right thing to do and I know I am doing it.Feel generally very low and have the day full of things to keep me busy.Came down to the computer to see all the replies to my post and was overwhelmed by the support. This is great. You can talk in person to friends but after a while they get sick of hearing the same. Here i can have my say any time of the day or night and get replies from those who have had similar experiences. Has to be great.Today I take my 17 year old son for his drivers licence. Then I drop him back at boarding school and catch the plane back to my home town, where I have an appointment with my therapist at 6. That is a day full of good things. And my daughter is waiting at home for me and she will be very proud of me now that I have finally stopped trying to fix things with her dad. All my children have been frustrated by my continued efforts to get my marriage back on track and my husband abusing them. It was at a stage where I may lose my kids support too, so that is why I had to make the break for good this time. I know I have done the right thing.