Today has been fine but not feeling so good and to much stress i think it is way to over whelming anymore..I was at my babys grave and it was like wind took my breath away...I was sick ever since..I hate the feeling I get when i go there...I think it hurts to bad and all i do is sit home....I think i need to find that happy place i once had when ,y family was hole and i really cant truely remember having happiness in a the past 9 month..Not that I dont find happiness with them..I am greatful I think I just lost myself that day and I never truely came back.......