Day One

Today was the day that I got the news of having VIN 3. I'm grateful I have a great support team in my OBGYN office, my husband, my brother. I hate that I have to have my mom around cause she is not one that is helpful to me right now - more power/control issues than anything. Not my fault she's living with us.
Tomorrow I go to the Oncologist with hubs and see what the treatment plan is about.
I'm scared cause I don't know what is going to happen.
I'm scared because I don't want to have to battle this for a long time.
I'm sad cause I don't want to miss my kids growing up, I'm 43.
I'm sad cause I don't want my husband to carry this kind of pain and burden.
I'm so sad...